Stand Still

Life is beautiful? Life is perfect?

Uhuh....what do you think?

I finally knew and realized that why some of the people why they hate themselves......
and now i know why I officially HATE MYSELF.

reason why....let's see, may be I can satisfy my requirement, blame myself that i really can't achieve my objectives. May be I hate myself that I'm not a genius/smart guy. I hate myself that Everything i can't make it perfect. What else? Hate myself that I'm not born in rich family ?

What if i really really Hating myself and my life? World end soon? Dying ? Suicide?

NOOO.......

Life still goes on, and I should work harder than people in twice time...nope, it's triple time .
Hardcore also have to do it....as I know "Practice makes Perfect!" well that's me, that's my style on how to motivate myself.


Ya, I do, I do hate myself but I'm trying to correct myself to become a better person.


Wish that Tomorrow will be better .

Good Night.

New Life

This time really New life huh.

I didn't expect that I can become a Librarian ....LOL.....College University Librarian...
Well, I was chosen to be a Probation librarian when i was in Form 2, but then Didn't get pass to become a Officially Librarian.....So now.......I'm a Librarian ! =='
Get paid, so it is satisfy from now cause I have to complete my 2 subjects then only graduate.

For sure after this semester i will officially work as full timer. Most probably will looking for another position, Looking for Marketing ,HR, PR, Financial department? haha.....

Actually my life .....just let it flow and plan for the future.
Set my high aim target..... Be a millionaire before 30-25 years old!? Can i do that? huh.....
My heart is telling me that I can do it ...but then... Sure or not?
"Belum Try Belum Tau"

I must take a risk in business...Too bad that I have to start from 0....zero....Nothing
Everything have to work by self .....do by self..
was planning to buy a bicycle by own then cycling to Train station then go to college or work ...
I have no choice that My family is started to broke... But I really have to stay strong and build a strong team ....to earn money.....It is hardly to find a trust-able person to work with. Also have to be aware...... Life is not fair ... but you have to take it as a challenge .

As you said I can't give everything to you, but would u provide everything to me? uhuh.... I don't think you can....

Blah....it's over. I don't care and Ignore this girl.

Hope she won't appear in my life ANYMORE. It's so BUGGING ME FOR LIFE.

I failed to participate for FHM 2011....it's quite disappointed but I have to stay tough and move on also. Failed doesn't mean i will keep losing. I will rise myself up again and GO FOR the Next Challenge .


I believe i can , I believe I can give for my future family has a happiness life. I believe myself can be better. I need to trust myself....

Emptiness ...Lifeless..

I lost my direction, again , again and again.

I have lost my Plan, my dream, my future.

Emo...? =='

What should i want in the future?
What should i need to do from now to the future?
What Can i Do for the world?
When I can start my plan again? set my plan again..?
Where should I start my plan ?


Things to do for now:

1. FHM 2011 Hot Cooking Competition
2. Principle of Marketing, Computer Application at least score B+ (A)
   
3. Doing Research for the Job
   
4. Gym (work out and don't be lazy)
5. Clean my ROOM and now it's look messy ! =S

That's all i think?

I am feel so so so Empty ~


Just realize that I changed alot. and kind of weirdo ..
I think....
Because of lost direction to make me become weird kiddo.. xD

But then, I wish that My life can be even better than last time...

Oh ya, Hope that I dont wanna be in Love, As a guy, should have the income first only get a girl friend. I had learnt a terrible lesson. I deserved it and I have to be more strong, tough.
Sometimes, People said how bad are you, You can't fully trust on what he/she said, if you did, you have no confidence to be yourself.... is it?
Sometimes you can believe what your friend said it to you, it is depending how you change for yourself and does it worth to listen from what he/she says.

Haih.......


"人生有多少个10年！？ 最重要的是活的痛快！！"

I hope so....



Loo Kang Shen !!! Come on !!!

New Objectives

Be Millionaire in the next 6 months!?
On Goin..wish can success....

Serious Case

After I came back from intern. A lot things had changed.

I also changed, become Kia Su further ...LOL.... but seriously, i changed in bad behavior..haha..
Don't worry, I'm doin and changing on it..

Well...so this is my really "Last" Semester which I was differing 2 subjects , Principles of Marketing and Computer Application. So...my classmate, Wong, Keegan , Michelle and Wilfred had already graduated ....so left me... I joined with all Juniors...haha still feel not habit because previously only 5 of us were in class and easy to concentrate in the class, but then now...46 students in a room !

Haha....Finally I feel.....Lonely? Last time was eating together with classmate , but then , now alot students with different gang, where i should join? Haha...I just find anyone to accompany me to have lunch. I don't mind which gang, I just need people that can talk to and having meal together...

Anyway, Why not You(me) can enjoying your life? haha....

When i came back from intern, The feeling is different from last time (Feeling= When i was in College, Had fun all the way.) This feeling can make me see through everyone's attitude, true color. This feeling is really make me feel annoying and I don't know why i have these kind of feeling. Become mature already? nah... I don't think so, I still have a lot of spaces that can improve myself.

"Lonely....I Mr.Lonely....I have nobody.....For my own ~~~ " -Akon- Lonely
Haha ! of course I still have friends..

Anyway, I hope and wish that Everything will be fine....wish that my life is getting better than better , Tomorrow will be better. =D

The End of story...

Think too much

Most of the people would like to think too much....especially Girls... but some or most of guys also ....why huh?

Reason why people will think too much is because each other lack of understanding, don't know well each other so that is why people will make the same mistake.
secondly, sending wrong message, people will feel "eh what kind of attitude like that?" "Why you did it to me? , or "Why you hurt me ?" then .... Think too much again and again.

Think too much also can create the imagination, and which is a wrong practice's theory.

How to solve the problem? let's see......

It is depending on how you look at the person.

Just to be whoever you are, be yourself are also a good way to help you avoid the "think too much" theory.

Just enjoying your life, be friendly and talk less , this may helps you wont let people misunderstand you. Just listen what your friend gossip and then THINK BEFORE YOU TALK. so that people will won't easily get trouble on you.

In Love,
Mostly people will think too much because of love.
If you and your boy/girl friend certainly understand each other well, i guess don't need to think a lot. Love, yes sometimes will making people down and moody, but then you have to think and solve it doesn't need to emo and down for a long time. It may harms health? haha....
Hurts....Just need time to heal, and be back to yourself, so you can avoid the feeling of Hurt.



Haha....i don't know what i can write somemore....I don't want to think so much ! LOL

Anyway, that is my point of view. If the sentences that you may not acceptable , I hope you don't mind.

Good Night ! =D
Brand new day, brand new life everyday !
Every Morning will have the new start. New fresh air~

Enjoy your life and Go on ~

我爱的人

我知道 故事不会 太曲折

我总会 遇见一个 什么人

陪我过没有了 她的人生

成家立业之类的等等

她做了 她觉得对的选择

我只好祝福她真的对了

爱不到我最想要爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人

她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人

她真幸福 幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人 她已有了爱人

从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能

每当听见 她或他说我们

就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

她做了 她觉得对的选择

我只好祝福她真的对了

爱不到我最想要爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人

她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人

她真幸福 幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人 她已有了爱人

从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能

每当听见 她或他说我们

就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

每当听见 她或他说我们

就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

19/4/2011

What to do in this semester?

Uhuh, this is my last semester and hmm...trying to make my life interesting.
But then, Single for so long, Wish to have a girl friend...Parents, whole family (uncle&auntie) are waiting for me to have a girl friend.... haha

Hello ! Uncle~ You think easy to get a good girl as your girl friend ? How they answer?

"EASY LAH....it is depends on you , how you get a girl friend with your truly heart."

" O.O" "that's how i replied to them...haha !

I'm not desperate in love anymore. Just i know that... Love "come loh...lai loh" "Man man dang lah" haha ! Seriously are from naturally what....but then how long that you can wait? for your truth love? good for your future?

Other than that, Hmm... I wanted to find a part time job cause this semester just only have 2 subjects which is Computer Applications and Principle of Marketing.
There's a scary part, ALL JUNIORS ARE SURROUNDING ME ! and they are just in 2nd semester or 3rd semester.. Oh my Shit ! haha...but then..is a good thing, Not to look down or look up. Make a new friend ^^. I think I failed interviewed the job at BUCH....

What a coincidences, They just hired a new staff member to handle the Upper Side East Deli....
I'm so sad...cause part time job is really hard to find a kitchen part timer. even you found but the time is not that you expected.

I had learned a lesson.....Thanks to Alex who taught me...
Everything need FAST !! FAST ! FASTER !!
If not, Enemy will taken you down, People will get the job faster than you, Your lover will be taken from your friend.

Well, I had just get Double Killed. X_X"

Nevermind ... is okay , I believe for the next time, God will give me the better one . =P

What else can do in this semester? Uhuh, i know. To improve my culinary skills since i so free in this semester....I'm waiting for the next Competition, FHM ! here i really come and take my revenge. Set Target: Gold or Gold with Distinction. In year 2009 , I got silver...the reason why i cant get gold because that was the FIRST DAY, FIRST HOUR . and i didn't pass up the recipe....haha this I let Chef Malcolm Goh , Chef Roiz gan jiong (Nervous). But then , because of hard worked, I got silver, Wilfred and Keegan got bronze medal in FHM.

Feel like alot things have to do before I die.. God Bless....

Uhuh, Now really restarted my Blog edi....good good... not bad .

Will updating always soon !!
Good Night ~
11:01p.m

错觉

错觉。

好男人不好当 It;s hard to be a Good Man.

Haha..... Why can't we to be a bad boy?

For me, as a man, I understand. Why to be a good man.
1) Responsibility
2)For the future, for your own good. Do not blame any bad people.
3)To take care all the people who around you. And to think which is important at first.
4) Be confident in everything. Do not lost confidence otherwise you gonna be mad at this world, for life.
5)Have to be patient. Not to rush , but then easily to let people misunderstanding.



Anyway, "PATIENCE" is very hard to control
Sometimes, yes it's easy but sometimes, it is Bloody hard to control your emotion.
Just like me, People can see me very easy to see my stressful emotion.
I'm still learning how to stay clam and be patient for everything.

Nah...un-patient doesn't mean i will straight away punch people.


"他不会是个好男人也不会是个好亲人~“
”男人哭吧 不是罪“
“男人不该让女人流泪”

LOL! these sentences are from the songs... it's quite meaningful for the lyrics.


Doesnt mean that I give up to be a Man, and want to be Chao Ah Gua =='
Please Don't Misunderstanding

Just I know that
"好男人什么事都要自己扛，要有责任感。”
"Be a good guy must have responsibility, everything have to solve by own self."

When I was in Intern, A sous Chef taught me alot lesson. And he showed to me that How the real man, real guy is. He has to take care of his family as well as the whole kitchen.

"你是不是男人，是男人的话，敢敢上，敢敢来。 不是的话，跟自己讲你是超阿瓜 ！ "
" Are you a man ? if you're a man, just do it ! if you are not, tell yourself you are the CHAO AH GUA! "

uhuh...that he told me. so because of that word, I become a well confident person. what did he say is quite true.
If I dont have confident , how to be a man?
Honestly, I was get bullied since i was small....actually until now... why? May be I was born in low self- esteem person, emotional , think too much like a girl, easy to cry.
But then, I tell myself, i dont want to get bully anymore...so I changed. And now people said I'm showing off person , LC , over high-self esteem person. uhuh....when i realized that , I feel I'm lonely and like getting anti from my friend...

well.....May be I just know that I show my talent to everyone, so that everyone wont bully me again, step on my head . or may be get influence from Singaporean Culture.
what to do? haha...I'm changing again and learn from mistake.

To be a good man, must know where is your mistake, and change for it , do for it.

Haha Sorry that sometimes i will run out of the topic, I think I have nothing much to write more about a good man.

Good Man, It is not easy to be. Have to take care of two sides whether which is right which is wrong.
Good Man, Have to keep their secret and just listening what they are sharing to you. Do not spread it out.
Good Man, Keep a promise and Must make it come true even it is impossible , especially to promise a girl or a girl that you really love and care.
Good Man, Do not just talk and didn't do something
Good Man, Cannot let girls cry because of you.
Good Man, Have to respect everyone decision.
Good Man, Do not lie to your Girlfriend/Wife/your Daughter and son.

Uhuh, I wish i can make it all =P


Want to be a Good man? Respect your parents at first... xD

11th April of year 2011

Hey guys !

I'm back ! Haha....long time didn't touch blog and i feel rusty !

Well, well , well actually i also don't know what can write , what to post in the blog. But then, let's talk about LIFE.

What Do You Think About Life?

There is your question... Haha

MONEY for Life? LOVE for Life? DREAM for Life?

Anything for Life? haha....

For me... Life let us know , How to love and protect the Earth. I guess?

For me I understand, We should Love our earth only get to know how to Love each other.

For me I know we have to take care of the earth only we can survive peacefully.

For me I certainly understand that LIFE will let you feel the happiness, enjoyable, suffer, stress, pain, hurts, etc.

I wonder how the GOD create us and to have those kind of these Emotions, but I know that if Human in the life without any challenges , Life will get bored at all. so called " LIFELESS"

Must Life to have Love? I mean as in Love a guy/lady in your life?

Nahh.... I just know Love are from naturally. I admit that i desperate in love before. that was last year. A girl who just came into our college in year 2010. She is cute, She is kind , She is great, She is friendly ,She is pretty, She is awesome. In my both eyes, first impression to let me feel that I wanted to protect this girl, take care of this girl , to love her and giving her Happiness in a new family, to build a good family. Well, i wanted to be a good husband, take care of my new family in my future. Lol just because of her, My life changed. I worked hard , I never give up, I willing to learn even always get scolded by chefs/lecturer. Because i want to improve and to show that I willing to do and be a good husband in the future. Because of her , I had to sacrifice my beloved sleeping hour to chat with her until midnight because She will just online at 10p.m every night. Then i lack of sleeping and pimples growth more and more. I didn't blame her cause this I willing to do.

haha ! Was I so stupid/idiot? I guess I'm , Everyone keep asking me to give up and don't waste my time for her. Is that true? Previously, I don't think so. If there's a chance for me to wait, why not? my previous answer, I will wait. No matter how long, til I die.

After a year, When i was in Singapore for my industrial training, I had changed a lot and I definitely become a Well confidence person, tough and fit. Lol.

"After you came back from Internship, I saw you become a real Man, and you improved alot! " From Mr.Resh.

Lol. so, I had patient for a year that I didn't ask her to be with me. But then, I talked everything to her, tell that I love her, I like her, blah blah blah ......just to let her know how is my feel.

The answer........ Treat me as a good friend , not more than that. Uh-uh...Is it pain ? Do you feel the pain ? that you WORKED so HARD, and set a Plan for the future? Dream On and had been crushed?
Haha....I felt I am so stupid. Immature in love. By the way, It's life ..this is life. I deserved the Pain.

That's the end of the story. L.o.L Told you, I had nothing to write.


Love, Let me know it's not only for a Girl that you Love. You can Love your Family and Friends.

Love are from Naturally. So do not force yourself.


What else I can write it down?
HAHA! suppose to write about Life, but then ended up with a topic, LOVE !

Hmm........

I don't know~

*I already Gave up on HER* Life goes on~~~~~

Hope she knows that.

Hopes that next time don't because of LOVE, I'm down !
Feel comfortable to say it out loud (cause nobody would see my blog anymore !)